So, this post will probably be a little bit shorter than normal, but as I’m sure you gathered from the main picture…OUR FAMILY IS GROWING!! We are expecting a baby in April 2019. I want to tell you a little bit of the back story and then how we found out.
Hunter and I got married in 2011. I never went on birth control of any kind, knowing from my previous pregnancy experiences and losses that getting pregnant would not be easy for me, and likely not even possible without fertility treatments of some sort. About a year into our marriage, in 2012, (after a couple super early losses together) we decided that adoption was the path we wanted to take to grow our family. We NEVER looked back on that decision. God was so good, adding our two beautiful daughters whom He clearly intended just for our family. Each of our girls have a unique adoption story, which I have shared bits and pieces of up until this point, but for the sake of this post I will just say that those journeys could not have been more perfect, placing both girls in our forever family.
Since adopting Neriah and Annabeth, in the last year or so, we had started the process to adopt an older child/children out of the foster care system. Something we had both desired to do since the beginning of our marriage. (and probably still will pursue at some point down the road) Unfortunately, when everything with Hunter’s job shifted resulting in the start of a new business, that process got put on the back burner. Not just for finances sake, but for timing reasons as well. I wanted to give ALL of me to a child coming into our home, and I felt, at that time I would not have been able to give what was necessary to take in a little one who would come with their own unique set of needs.
So now, in 2018, our family was where it was going to be for a little while-at least as far as WE had planned. This entire time conceiving was not on our radar. Well, about a month ago, I was sitting at my computer working SUPER late at night. I remember thinking for a very brief moment “I feel off…what if I am pregnant??” but then quickly dismissing that thought-chalking the strange feeling up to the steady diet of caffeine and frozen pizza I had consumed in the previous 2 weeks. I couldn’t entirely shake the feeling so when I went upstairs, I rummaged under the sink and found an old EXPIRED pregnancy test. (yes there are a LOT of random things under my bathroom sink!) I took the test and it very quickly came up positive. To illustrate exactly how FAR pregnancy had fallen from my mind, I instantly consulted Dr. Google for what rare types of cancer or disease a woman can have that would produce a FALSE positive pregnancy test…. TRUE STORY. In fact, by the morning I, along with Dr. Google, had diagnosed myself with a rare form of ovarian cancer. I had already gone through plans for my kids, how I was going to tell everyone…yes, I had temporarily lost my mind. So, the next morning, I told Hunter what was going on. He too, was stunned. I will say though that his reaction leaned much more towards a LOGICAL one that mine had. He encouraged me to go buy more tests since the one I took was expired, and to call my doctor. Which I did- actually I bought EVERY test I could find and took them ALL. (I included a pic to show the level of crazy) Indeed, they were all positive.
My doctor got me in very quickly, but our first ultrasound was very early and there was no heartbeat detected yet. The doctor assured us it was too early, which I tried to find hope in, but given our past it was very hard not to live in a state of anxiety for the next several weeks. Hunter was a great encouragement and continued reminding me that we are going to be thankful for this life from the beginning and as long as God entrusts this little one to our care. That helped in the long weeks that followed.
I am excited to say that this past Friday we had an ultrasound where baby had a strong heartbeat and looked great. I am still very early, only a couple months along, but we decided sharing early would just allow that many more people to pray for us, for this baby and for our family as a whole. We continue to rest in the fact that God has a plan, He always does. We find comfort in the fact that He is the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow-no matter WHAT tomorrow may hold. Being completely honest, I feel a little anxious putting this out there, wondering if something were to happen now EVERYONE will know…but I committed at the beginning of this to let God use our life and our journey for His glory. For me that has to look like complete transparency, trusting that whatever comes, He is still God and is still GOOD. I am considered high risk this time around because of my history, oh and my absolute favorite high risk marker “advanced maternal age!” That one will make you feel like a million bucks! So, while we have a long road to get baby here, we want to ask for your prayers for health, for peace, for TRUST in His plan, and that all glory would be given to God alone throughout this entire process- the good and the difficult. Finally, just one more thing that points to His hand alone, when we initially shared this news with close friends, 2 of those close friends expressed that they had specifically been praying this for our family. What is cool about that, is that I had never asked for or solicited those prayers, in fact they were seemingly random. It is cool though to know the prayers of others, are at times are more befitting God’s plan than our own. We are excited, a little apprehensive to be honest, but just anxious to see even more, God’s hand in our lives.
Thank you for your prayers! Leave any comments below I would love to connect with each of you!!